yes, after almost or already 3 years of being a singleton. im still a single. hahas. funny thing is. i think i may actually like someone. i figured that love is too strong a word to use. i'd only use tt word only when im in a serious relationship. im in third year of studies. and guess what. i may actually subconsciously be falling for a friend who has always existed since the starting of poly years. only this time, things seemed more different. beats me. i don't know. i realised in first year, that he could actually be the one i like. cos he was different. he was the exact person i wished i could meet. not a typical mat, likes challenges, sporty and outspoken. well, his qualities were simply not typically of the guys i'd usually go for. but still, he was different. but i never saw him as a person to like since the day he got closer to another girl, and i was inevitably linked with another guy. in a confusing state that i was in, i thought i actually liked the second guy. but then, being me, getting awfully teased time and time again is almost like psycho-ing you to actually like that person. true enough we were and very close friends. but the thought no longer confused me eversince he got attached. and is attached to someone too at the moment. i guess things between me and this first guy only changed when i discovered that he could probably be liking someone. being a retard that i was, i was thinking of what of the possibilities that he might actually like me. i don't know why, but it felt as if i wanna wait for him to go hm together. i guess getting to know him better was my sole purpose. he's an awesome guy. but i think he may actually like another classmate of ours, 'S', S was associated with him due to their closeness at the same time of my crazy scandal rumours.. although she was attached. they were always the source of a possible getting together kinda friends. plus, when i was closer to 'S' she did say that it might be possible that she could like him, until whoever came into the picture and they sorta got to that stage first. so maybe he was sad. i don't know, im not him. well. i shouldnt be talking bout this. doesnt concern me at all. well. i hope u'll be happy, relli do. if u're happy so am i. =)