WHY ARE THERE UNNECESSARY EXPECTATIONS TO LIVE UP TO?
sometimes, i cant help but question myself and others.
issit a must to live up to what others require of us?
issit a must to live up to what we not necessarily want, but HAVE to?
issit a must to live each and everyday doing things we dont even like?
issit a must that everything in this world is judged on the exterior?

i dunno.
it just pisses me off, making me question myself,
what has the world come to?
everythings either about money, studies, etc.
all of worldly desires.
at the end of the day, when u leave the world,
are u gonna take all these with u?

whats more saddening yet time and time again,
listening to my friends competing for something, that
im pretty sure they will question themselves too,
why the hell am i doing this?
who exactly is this for?
we have the answers to these questions, but its never convincing.
its so doubtful, we end up asking ourselves over and over.

i dunno.
i dont like what im seeing, or hearing.
maybe its cos i have yet to find my purpose in life.
but one thing's for sure,
im not gonna live up to what others want me to do,
im just gonna do what i deem as what i should rightfully do.
whether or not its gonna take me far,
thats between me and what God has planned for me.

*Insyaallah

Btw, happy burfdae my lovely sis.
U're a year older now.
I hope things will get better for u.
Happy burfdae! Muackz.