i must say.
this is gonna be a very personal entry.
probably as a reflection for myself.

everyone in the whole world knows,
im not the most devout Muslim.
i dont really pray 5 times a day.
& yes. i lied bout that. and i hate myself for that.
i don wear the tudung or cover up myself.
im not well educated in my religion.
in fact im lacking in so many areas of my religion.
i must say, im very much ashamed of myself.

i used to question myself.
why was i born in a religion which had so many requirements.
it was not till lately that i opened up my heart.
and see the light.
and believe it or not, liking azhar was probably the best thing for me.
it just made me wanna be a better Muslim.
its not solely for him of cos.

i felt that i am a much better person as a whole.
i am a much calmer person.
Islam sees reasons.
sees the logic in evrything.
for evrything we do, there's always a good reason.

And now, I just feel that my life is getting better.
more on the right path.
i've never felt better.
I'm just glad Allah s.w.t has made me see the way.

after goin to the cemetery,
crying upon visiting my grandma's grave.
it just felt like a weight has been lifted.

sorry peeps, this is just an entry to reflect upon myself.
I do not expect any comments.=)