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Sunday, September 28, 2008 @ 12:13 AM i must say, lately i dont know what has gotten into me.
i kept thinkin bout him every now and then. even when i dream, he's in it somehow. yikes, its that scary. really. whats wrong? am i really falling hard for this guy? what is it abt him that makes me yearn so much for his attention and all? i mean, i've never felt this strangely before. i mean he's completely oblivious to how i feel aroun him, how i react to every single thing he does or say, n his slightest actions of not taking pictures with me or whatever, had de OUCH impact on me, when its just a bloody small matter. why do i feel as if he doesnt want me aroun, as if he's pushing me away, when really, we have nth to tie us down, nothing's even official yet. despite all this, i still feel this emptiness, or rather this worry for how he is coping and all. its as if, i just wanna be there for him, at every step of de way. But why? whats with this guy anyway? plus, how can this ever be possible?!! he's loud. noisy. crazy. mad. temperamental. psychotic. self-obsessed. irritating. but yet, he's just this wonderful, funny, knowledgeable, filial, sweet guy, etc. etc, ok, what the @#^!#&(@...!!NOOOOOOO WAYYYYYYYYY. what de hell is wrong with me?!! damn. someone, pls tell me this isnt happening. and that im just drunk, or just plain delusional.. we're on different wavelengths. he couldnt possibly, ever, or forever, feel the same!! AAAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHH.. i hate human relationships. so freakingly complexed. and soo much of feelings and all dat kinda crap. bleahs. someone shoot me now! *and if someone tells me to concentrate on studying first, i'll probably end up shooting u guys first. hahas. Okays, im just mad. BAHAS. |
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