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Wednesday, November 12, 2008 @ 9:19 PM im not gonna act as if im happy n all..
not gnna force myself to be who im not at de moment. im sure some of u knw that im unable to cope wit de rapid changes.. and some wud know wats realli probably botherin me.. im just tired of how things are. but i guess, all i need, is just not to care. for de moment. n breakaway. n find a purpose. its really getting to me. mentally draining. n it has taken a toll on my health. to be honest, i haven been tt all well. just after i sent out a last msg to him. i coughed non-stop. n everyone was staring at me. it din stop till i get off de bus. causin my asthma attack shortly after. i'd swear i tot i was gnna... cos i was on my own. n cudnt call anyone.. cudnt even see clearly.. until i managed to grab my inhaler. at dis point in time, im still breathin slowly. haven gotten asthma attacks in a relli long while. n dese few sudden-onsets cud probably just kill me one day whn no one's aroun. not try'na gain sympathy. just felt i needed a wake-up call to appreciate life at de moment. |
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