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Saturday, December 27, 2008 @ 8:57 PM im not trying to be emo. but heys, everyone has ups and down rights? mine happens to be a happy day, den sad day. alternate days. but oh wells. here's what i have to say. i went for a haircut tdy. cos i just wanna get rid of a lot stress. yeah. i realised im like my sis. cutting hair to get rid of all stress. unfortunately for me, mum n dad dont allow me to cut short. so ya. so i just trimmed it layered. k. back to my point tt i wanted to say. again, on de issue of myself. [i know i know, i should get over it alredi.] i know im strong, and i do believe tt everythin will make me a stronger person. and i thank u everyone who has hear me out on my problems and stuff. u have no idea how much load u guys help me with. i just feel that at times, i just gtta stop being weak too. i gtta stop crying. i gtta stop gettin hurt over de mildest stuff. i gtta stop letting things affect me. i just gotta take whatever that comes and live with it. but its seriously easier said than done. im upset. im hurt. its hurting so much inside. and im trying. im trying so hard. otherwise, i wudnt be crying at de mere thought of it. everyday is a pretense!! im a pretentious hypocritical biarch! thats the ultimate truth!!! i just dont wanna be misunderstood anymore. and i dont want to be doubted. u either trust me or u dont. and i dont wan people to think of my gd intentions, de other way. cos thats not how i intend it to be. i truly, genuinely care. i dont have any ulterior motives. and i'd swear i could just kill myself. i wished, there's just sth i could do still, anything at all. if only, i could turn back time, or help you. but its beyond me. i just wished that u'll just look past ur mistakes, and just forgive urself for it. i've lost you already. what more is it gonna cost me? look at de pathetic state im in. awfully pathetic. and i dont wan to regret things i've done. said. or whatever. i just wanna run away. i wanna go far far away and escape. there's so much more i wish to say. but sths, are better kept to myself. I pray for strength to hang in there. I would trade away anything, anything, just so that my loved ones, my closest kins, and my dearest friends, get to see better days. these are words that i've kept in my heart, and was left unspoken, until today. [what hurts the most, was being so close, and having so much to say, and watching you walk away. and never know if, what could have been. -rascal flatts]
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colourful 12 June 1989 19 goin 20. yeps. dark, short, ugly but considered adorable.hahas. psychotic. in a nice way:D Click here if you want to leave. loves all my lovable peeps. dark chocs. walking aimlessly (at times) reflecting. HAHAS. being my psychotic self. CIP sessions. muahahas. my 2 chubby chubs bunnies. gossips :D ESCAPADES class hugs sally loves mellarla merv de lovin giant azhar into the past July 2008 August 2008 September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 APPLAUSE basecodes by: detonatedlove/♥s} images: photobucket designer: /♥s}summerkisses} |