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Sunday, January 4, 2009 @ 9:47 PM DISORIENTATED MENTALLY
gosh, i really wish i can take life not so seriously. and go just about everyday normally. as in, try to see in the light side of things and everything. a new year holds a new hope, i understand. but, i cant help but see the bleakness of it all. its today that i convinced myself, that i have faith in nothing, but just faith in one thing, that is my religion. but does that suffice? i've gotta have faith in everything else right? gosh, im really wondering why am i so confused, at this age. searching and wandering aimlessly for a purpose. seeking the answers to all the questions i have at hands, and those answers are either those i dont want to hear of, or just simply, answers that i still dont get till this day. its like im conflicted with my own personality. its like what u read on my blog, is sth u dont see in me in school. i really really hope that i get this dumb confused state of mind out of de way. cos im really sick of it. i want to lighten up. i want to believe tt evrything will take a turn for the better. its like one moment, im de happiest bean aroun, and the next, everythin comes tumbling dwn. and im wishing for the worst things to happen to me, so that i can snap out of it and change. but its not right. its just not right. |
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