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Thursday, January 29, 2009 @ 10:28 PM to start it off, im not a person who writes much on lovey dovey stuff.
wells, i used to. im not de kind to write on emotional stuffs, wait a min, i always do that. oh wells. i just like to think everything in depth, and not just on de surface. i cannot be oblivious to things happening aroun me. cos thats just not how i work. sighs. a lot of unforeseen things happening around me. not really unforeseen, kinda predictable. but i chose to look all on de brighter side of things. sucha emotional roller coaster it has been for everyone really. i just wished, all of us, could just take a break, and truly enjoy a moment, even if it lasts for a short while. im tired too, but dere's just dis push to make de memories last for long.. alot of things happened in dis few mths, big, small, depressing etc.. but im still all smiles.. and at dis moment, im still wrkin on my mini project, table flooded with paper and all stuffs.. hahas. i really wonder whther i shud anticipate for things to happen. or shud i just go with what comes. here's me being straighfwrd. please dont take offence. im tired of putting on a mask. i really hope that we all can get thru certain things by being professional. whatever it is one face, problems, or just about anything else that bothers u, please dont let it interfere with schoolwrk or whatever.. everyone of us has problems, but dere are just times, whrby we just gtta learn to suck it in. maybe im doin it wrong, but oh wells. sighs. i really dont wish to see you keep pacing back and forth. cos as much as a relatnship brings you much happiness, if its gonna cause u more hurt, i rather u put an end to it. maybe cos we see things differently. u used to say tt my situatn was different, n tt it din hurt as much cos of de fact tt me n him weren't together to begin with, but i dont see de difference. cos de feelings itself, doesnt make it hurt any lesser, or made things any more easier.. but despite where we are now, im still very happy. u see, loving someone isnt just about possessing or having him to myself. i just wished u wud take a stand, and firmly hold onto it. .....its not that i dont love u as a fren, but all i want to knw is that u genuinely want me to be there for you. and not cos of how situations are. im tryin to open up myself to u, but i have my reservations. last time, things were okays. but i cant help to think tt as much as evryone seems happy being whr dey are, dats just not how it seems.. prolly thats how de world is. full of pretenses and de struggle to keep up with it. pple, u dont have to tag if you dont wan to. im tired. backache. im old. |
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