ai..goo..
as i choose to runaway from things that await me.
a thousand thoughts flash through my mind.

studying for immuno, is hard enough.
due to my lagging brain cells. studying has been so darn difficult.
God knows what went wrong along the way. seriously.
this brain of mine just wont let anything sink in.
and it kills me. i used to be afraid of failure, now im just okay with it.
i wondered what happen to that?
ahhh.

sometimes, i just cant fake it anymore. people can tell.
otherwise thru circumstances, im bound to tell of it myself.
it pains me, but i just laugh it off half of the time.

and im sad too..
my pillars of support thru the years.
where will they be in time to come..
as times pass, priorities are bound to change..
whats impt now, may not mean much in future..
but i really hope that even tho in future,
we'll all have different commitments,
we'll make time for each other..somehow.

ahh. and.
im lost again.
not knowing whr to head afterwrds.
seems like i have a whole lot of plans.
truth is, in my mind its just:
"after poly. can life come to a halt? please?
cos seriously, for it to continue..its just sth i do not want."

im gonna be lost more than ever.
ajusshhii.

someone needs a saving. ME.