and so,
it was the first day of work.
sighs.
how should i put it?
the day began just fine.
though not having the security cards sucked big time,
becos tt wud mean i cudnt go pretty much anywhere.
some could recall me,
while others forgot, but since it has been a year. I didnt bother.
and so new faces i saw,
some were very friendly.
the lab was pretty crowded i must say,
the guys were only ks, jeffrey, nasir and victor.
the other 5 were girls..

Nth much has changed.
the office politics were very much alive,
and me, having to sit in the room,
to watch 10 cds of the ongoing studies from the morn till 4pm,
obviously had to hear all that was gg on.
it doesnt help tt u feel enthusiastic bout it at first,
but everyone just kept coming, saying things,
tt made u question whether it was the right thing to do, to come back.
so by lunchtime, i was pretty zonked out, tired and all.
mr victor even asked, what happened to you, u used to be so cheerful.
i think for a moment there, they forgot bout me,
and jeffrey followed me to lunch, whr i only ate a sponge cake, and watched him ate,
cos i had not much appetite..

its kinda sad tt im putting myself out there to them,
but half of the time, my presence isnt acknowledged.
i couldnt even force myself to try harder.
but thankfully, the guys were much better company.

i'll be working tmr.
but i can foresee myself working not for long.
cos i cant be working at a place, whrby i just cant wait to knock off.
and have to worry every single second cos you just cant afford to make a single mistake.

and my dad's fallen ill.
and i'm getting a fever prolly due to stress.
lets hope both of us will get well soon.