an edited entry.

cos. im done.
done with the pretending.
done with trying so hard.
done with trying to keep up with everyone else.
done with not knowing what i should have known.
done with realising that its not gonna get me anywhere.
done with everything else.

i just cant be bothered anymore.
just so so worn out.
i dont even feel like responding to anyone.
and i've just about had it.
im aware of my capabilities.
im aware of what i can do to myself or for myself.
im aware of everything around me,
that even when i wanna shut myself from it,
i just cant.

tell me how do you live day by day.
or each day at a time,
when you dont even know why and what you're living for.
tell me. cos i've reached that point.
and i can give it up. anytime.
anytime.