I am writing on this very day, for no apparent reasons. Simply felt like writing to my loves.
The world outside is harsh, as i've gathered. It may all seems nice, and easy on the surface. But it gets tougher each time. I find myself always at a point whereby i question what and why is it im doing what im doing, in a state of being nowhere here nor there. And its very obvious that you guys are way much stronger than me. Despite what comes your way, you guys never let it bring you down, instead, you guys become even more stronger, and that is sth i'm truly envious of, and wished i had the exact same capabilities.

There are things that each and one of us hide, sth we keep away from the eyes of the world for fear of being shunned away, or looked upon as being weak or a coward for trying to run away from facts. But regardless of whatever it is, we mustn't be afraid to feel what it is we're feeling, because that's our God-given right; to feel.

Whoever has known me long enough, would definitely know that i'm not one whose very strong, half of the time, i appear to be strong for others. Nonetheless, there are a lot of things that i've learnt from each individual. And i'm truly glad that i've met every single one of you.

I apologize for the things i've said, be it in your face, or behind your backs. As angelic as i seem to be, i'm definitely not. I'm sorry if i was the two-faced bitch you guys never knew. I'm being upfront now, as i feel that there's no point hiding things anymore. Not because we're graduating, and i wouldn't have to see you guys anymore, but simply cos i love you guys alot, and sths just got to go.

As i try to convince myself of the things i really want in life, as i try to seclude myself to find the answers to questions at hands, as i seek what truly matters, I hope everyone else will be happy, and do just as great.

You'll guys do great! =D

"wonder what my life would mean if its gone.
can you tell me whats special about me, all these while?
let's pretend, and see how far we've come."

goodbye for now,
zak. <3