Just some 15 random facts:

im still no angel.
still working hard on whatever it is i've set out to do.

still hope to be a good Muslim, to the best of my ability.

still hope that i can be different,
rather than seek to just enjoy life,
i'd rather do other stuffs, such as looking after my parents,etc.,
sounds pretty hard to believe. but i don't care of what you think.

im still the depressed girl, psychotic girl behind closed doors.
but thats sth im really working on.

i hate when i put in the best of my efforts,
only to be let down by the people i have faith in,
or rather, those i never gave up on.

i hate that when i hope to be appreciated,
it never seems to come through.

i hate when changes come like a sea of waves,
hitting you when you least expect of it.
not that changes aren't healthy,
sometimes, it hits you pretty bad.

i hate the fact that i'm hating whatever it is i'm hating,
and not having the patience/tolerance to see past it.

i'm still plump. thats a fact that remains. hahas.
despite losing a bit of weight,
im still plump, chubby, fat or whatever you call it.

i'm still the pessimistic, yet can be pretty optimistic at times.
Especially to others. I can give you all the reasonings,
on why you have to pull through what is it you're going thru,
but half of the time, i'm not so convinced of it myself.

i still like him, up till now.
but i guess that doesn't matter anymore.

alot of things are being a pain in my ass.
but im just keeping silent. for now.

im a habitual liar.
but its sth that i have to face up to, on my own, one fine day.

i have fears of losing friends who are important to me,
and there are those, i fear to lose,
yet my placing in their eyes, is just that of someone,
whose just to be physically there for them.

i cry alot. and my sleep has been gettin more irregular than ever.
which explains why my dark circles are becoming worst.
its a way i release everything that has been weighing down on me.

I won't be blogging until the end of this week.
Till then, byes.